Welcome Back - To Me

It has been a while since my last post, isn’t it?

Well, Assalammualaikum and a very good day to anyone out there.

I started this blog with a broken heart. It’s been almost 4 months so I am quite OK now. A lot has happened. Although I couldn’t say that I have totally moved on but I could say that I am just OK. Huhh..

I am not here to talk about all those I-got-dump-please-help-me thingy.

I am here to share about my life and my stories. Actually, a lot about myself of course. Oh yah, before I go further let me warn you readers.. reading my blogs, you are going to find a lot of grammatical errors. Just bear with it ok? I am practicing my written English and please don’t say “tak pandai BI janganlah berlagak tulis blog dalam BI”. Auchhh!  As I said, I am practicing it so scram if you mind with my broken English.

To start it with, I am no more a student now, which is a sad thing.  I have finished my studies last week. Officially it was last Tuesday, my last day at Tawfeek Badjenid & Partners (TBP).  I had a month of practicum at TBP along with my two besties, Ekin and Dayah. Glad that everything went well except that I still yet to finish my practicum report.  *sigh*

And now, I am home! Home sweet home girl! But to tell you the truth, the bored aura is already on the air~ 

First day at home, I spent one whole day kemaskemas all my stuff and belongings which is not yet finish. Haihhh.. since I am living in a kampong house so first and foremost I did was laplap all the dust and plus mopping and sentaling the wall. Haa (what kind of language are you using fika??-OhMyEnglish!-)

Then, I also rearranged all the furniture and siap cilok kaklong’s drawer and put it in my room. 

Then, the second day, after subuh, exactly after sunrise, I spent my morning together with the mosquitoes at backyard.  Arghhh, you wouldn’t dare to guess what happened! Me, si pemalas menyapu sampah early in the morning! Haha. If kaklong knows this, she’ll definitely say “pika dah kene rasuk”.  After clearing and cleaning the laman, my whole body got jammed. Uhhuhh. 

p/s: i was supposed to post this last week. So, this is a last week stories. 

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak peeps! 

Doa

In the name of Allah the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

My very best friend sent a message to me, a very nice Doa. I am not sure whether she wrote this by herself or just forwarded from somewhere. Anyhow, I cried when I read this. Very touching and yes I really need this. 

I share it here, specially to those who are still heart broken as I do. 

Bismillah...

Ya Allah,
Bila dia bukan untuk ku,
Bila dia bukan jodohku,
Maka berilah ganti yang lebih baik buatnya.
Dan bantulah aku untuk memperbaiki diriku.

Ya Allah,
Bila ini bukan masanya,
Bila ini belum saatnya,
Jarakkan kami.
Pisahkan kami.
Agar kami jauh dari dosa dan perkara sia-sia.
Agar kami tak mengundang murkaMU.
Agar kami dapat lebih menjaga hati.

Dan
Bila doaku didengari,
Bila permintaanku KAU kabulkan,
Bila masa membina jarak yang memisahkan,
Bila waktu membina tembok yang merenggangkan,
Bila kami semakin jauh,
Ingatkan aku tentang doaku yang lalu.

Ya Allah,
Bila itu terjadi,
Yakinkan aku,
Bahawa doaku didengari,
Bahawa KAU sedang merencanakan yang terbaik buat aku,
hambamu.

Bantulah aku menjalani hari,
Bantulah aku menerima ketentuan dengan ketabahan.
Agar terhapus semua kesedihan dan kekecewaan.
Agar dapat ku pujuk hati ;
“kerana ALLAH lebih tahu…”

Gloomy Day

I thought I can forget you. Forgive you. Yes yes I did forgive you but can't forget you. This is bad. I am not suppose to post anything about you. Not at all. But this damn feeling is killing me.

Ya Allah, 

di penghulu hari yang tenang ini, aku bermohon kepada Mu Ya Allah, 

berilah ketenangan dalam hati ini.

 Damaikan jiwa yang semakin goyah ini. 

Pimpinlah daku Ya Rabb. 

Jauhkan dia dari ingatanku ini. 

Moga Kau tuntun diri ini. 

Amin.